what i really want

is for you
all of you to whom i matter
and who matter to me

to get inside my head
to swim in my thoughts

thoughts and thoughts
that have been swirling
round and round

thoughts i'm too lazy
too busy too exhausted
too scared too paiseh
too selfish too proud

to articulate,
by way of this blog
or otherwise.

the events and places i've been to
people who've kept me company
(and those whose company i keep
only in my thoughts)
sentiments i've been harboring

and the music!
the art, the tube
the fabric, the long walks
the messages (digital or otherwise)
the voices, the stories
(okay some alcohol too)
the memories
that have kept me going

they go
round and round
in and out
of my head
and in again

i sure as hell want
you
to know
to know me

partly because
i've become a lousy blogger
wanting to make amends

partly because
i just miss you!
i'll be missing you
maybe i've missed you before

you
who matter to me
and to whom i matter



now tell me about your day

All's well that ends well

It was a lazy weekend -- and I liked it that way. It was a weekend consisting of a book and a movie at Central Library, Grey's Anatomy, card games like Bridge and Hearts until 5AM, Absolut Vanilla, Choir practice at some faraway place, and capped by a relaxing back-of-a-green-pick-up ride at 1030PM to this prata shop at West Coast, with friends around, in a table with excellent cheese prata (one that would put the Fong Seng coffee shop to shame) and a big mug of ice-cold bandung.

All's well that's ends well, I thought.

I realise, however, that by the same token, all's unwell that ends unwell. I only needed to get back to the room, and well, all's unwell.