ODD AGAIN

i feel funny. i'm not sick, maybe i'm tired, maybe i'm just lazy, but i sure am out of control.
i don't really feel like talking, or studying, or doing anything at all.
i can't seem to know what to do right now, how to set my priorities, and what some people are telling me right now just make me feel.. funnier?

yeah, it's pure nonsense. ewan. maybe i'm sad? but i was laughing like crazy last night. but that was last night pa. there's not even enough reason to be sad. hmmm.. dunno. maybe it's just the exams. yeah, maybe i'm just stressed. i sleep at around 2am lately, last night it was 3am as i helped xaypanya with his english yet again (boy i sure hope he doesn't fail his exam). yeah, it has to be the stress. and maybe it has corrupted my inner system that i find myself a little more cynical, a little more touchy, a little more sad maybe, a little more off, a little more odd.


"UPPER"

my "upper" or "feel-gooder" (pardon my word invention) right now is music by jars of clay. (you can tell by the background music, which i' ve uploaded to powerwebmusic.) it's amazing what music does, i tell you. take it from a music freak. =)

i like the concept, too, of "jars of clay".

"But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us. We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. We always carry around in our body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be revealed in our body. For we who are alive are always being given over to death for Jesus' sake, so that his life may be revealed in our mortal body." - 2 Corinthians 4: 7-11.

nice right?
a few verses after that is this cool inspirational stuff too. applicable to my present state, what with the numerous zits, the eyebags, the unmanageable hair, the stress level that's off the charts.

"Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal." - 2 Corinthians 4: 16-18.

that felt good. incidentally, survivor 2 queen tina mentioned this set of verses in her final words as she was voted off (the first one too) survivor: all stars. just peachy. wasting away outwardly, that's true. being renewed inwardly, that's cool.

it's maundy thursday. time to do some thinking and praying.
and studying of course. off to science library. or somewhere else.